Crazy
There is a jargon in the Beijing opera circle: "if you are not crazy, you will not survive!" As soon as I came into contact with this sentence, I never forgot it. Because, I have been "crazy": I have been "crazy" for a woman who does not love me, as if possessed! At that time, I naively thought that as long as I went after a woman, I would definitely get it.
So, I am like a toad, watching the swans flying in the sky, just want to fly up, and the swans take off, so I jump hard, thinking that if I jump high, I can catch up with the swans and grow wings!
That swan never stayed for me for a minute!
And I, two and a half years, jumped for her tens of thousands of times, hundreds of millions of times!
How free and light she flies, and how hard I fly!
Every time I "fly", I fall. The higher I fly, the worse I fall!
"fly", "fly", fall, fall.
Sometimes it falls on thorns, sometimes on a pile of shit, sometimes in dung.
…… It was my youth, it was my dream time.
Since then, I have never been "crazy" again. I have become honest, calm and realistic.
I wrote this unique experience into one of my novels.
In this novel, I have been really "crazy", has been eager to "survive"! ……
My novel is also "crazy", I really hope it can "survive"!
Hope me, "no madness will not survive"!
2020-5-12
Write at home in the morning
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