Thank you for giving me free and easy.

On May 20, many people lived this so-called "I love you" holiday. I accompanied my best friend to regulate her mood, and I also experienced the end of a relationship, so this is still a day worth thinking about.

Jing Jing is my best friend in college. We have only graduated for more than a year, and it is not too long. So at our age, there are a lot of difficulties and helplessness, about life, about work, about feelings. In recent years, she has not been in love, because at this age, even love is very cautious, because of responsibility and responsibility, we are waiting for a suitable person to come into our life and world. Finally, one night, when it was very late, she called me excitedly and told me that he had found the right person for her. I encouraged her to pursue what she loved. We are not brave to love, take care of it carefully, dare not touch it easily, it is a common fault of all. She was brave at last, but the other party has decided to leave this place, which is also equivalent to a bolt from the blue, but we all keep this nostalgia in our hearts, do it slowly, and bless each other.

There is a kind of friendship between girls in this world called girlfriends, which also has a lot of feelings between me and her. People who have this friendship are happy and lucky, and how lucky I am. Such a strong I can also because of her sadness let my distressed tears turn in my eyes. I am not a person who shed tears easily, because there is a saying like this: don't bow your head, the crown will fall off; don't cry, others will laugh. I want to be a girl with a strong heart and a very good girl, and I have been doing it all the time. I believe that good people can meet good people. Jing Jing is also a very strong person, but I love her. I hope she won't work so hard. If she can hear this letter, I would like to tell her the following words: being your best friend is the luckiest thing in my life. I don't know when and how you came into my barren and lonely heart. Since you came in, it makes me feel that I have you, which adds warmth to my heart and gives me strength and care. You told me not to hold on sometimes, don't worry, I'll be fine. As for you, I use up my love to give you the care and warmth you want. When you need me, my silent company with you is my smallest way. A good girl will eventually meet the right person, give you care and warmth, as well as family, responsible person. Before you meet that person, let me love you instead of him, so that you are not alone. I help you wipe your tears when you cry, lean on me when you are tired, and talk to me when you are bored. Many things we do not have to avoid and escape, things have two sides, we dare to face, is a brave person. A person is not necessarily unhappy, we will all be fine.

Next, let me take a look at my emotional experience. I am an emotionally delicate person, and my emotional reason is beyond my imagination. When I was in Xianyang, I met my passer-by B. in fact, I would like to use his name to replace it directly, but considering that it is other people's privacy, let's call him Mr. Zhang. I also store his mobile phone number as Mr. Zhang.

First of all, Mr. Zhang, thank you for our acquaintance. Passers-by An and B have met for a long time. There are a lot of pleasantries, and then we separate and live our own lives. I hope my story can be shared with more people, although there is not much positive energy, but I use my strength to tell the girls that when things happen, we can all stimulate the potential to support you, you may never know. In love, we should also use the right way to judge this relationship, no one is right and who is wrong, encounter is a kind of fate, the other party gives you a chance to grow and experience, which is also a harvest for us.

I am an interior designer, and I met Mr. Zhang at the construction site. Because of a drawing, I called to pick it up, and the other person said that he would leave in the afternoon. I said I could be there in ten minutes. This was the first time I met him. The first time I called, I was very polite and shy. I said: Hello, I am a friend of so-and-so. I came to copy a drawing. I don't know when you have time. He said he was leaving right away and asked me how long it would take to get there. I said ten minutes at the most. Then I finished taking the drawings in a few minutes, and he was about to hurry back to Xi'an without wasting other people's time. I hurriedly thanked him and left. We walked a distance of two to three hundred meters. I was in front of him, and we didn't talk to each other. When I went out of the gate of the community, I went to the other side, because I was not familiar with it, so I avoided my peers. I turned to him and said, "I'm going this way. Bye."

Later, I went to the construction site twice, and once I went to play with him with my friend. In fact, I just wanted to chat with him. It was not that I had a crush on him at the beginning, but I just wanted to increase the opportunity to get to know a stranger. When we met for the third time, we spent more than ten minutes together. I remember that when I was talking to him, I disdained to skim a sentence to him: who can live with you like you? My contemptuous and arrogant attitude was actually very reckless, but I was also an inadvertent joke. I hope you don't mind, we all meet the right person.

The next day he texted me and asked me my name, and I replied. He also asked my Wechat, I said Wechat is not tied to the mobile phone number, saved the number can add Wechat ah. He said he didn't, and I sent him my Wechat to search: be my own queen. He talked a lot when he first came into contact with me, he said that he saw me three times, the first time he was shy and pure, the second time he felt very sunny and lively, and the third time he thought I was straightforward and good. Forget how I felt at that time. Anyway, I had a good time. At noon the next day, we also talked about Wechat. I asked: will you like me? In fact, I felt his love and affection for me, and he said: yes. He also asked: will you like me, too? I said: maybe. So he changed the name of Wechat to: be your hero on earth. Now I have come to the conclusion that he may only be my earthly hero and I will be my queen. All in all, it got off to a good start and ended on the night of yesterday, May 20.

Yesterday, because of my best friend's recent mood, I couldn't do anything, but at least I could accompany him. It happened that in the afternoon we talked about Mr. Zhang, and I always wanted to take Mr. Zhang to meet my best friend. I called and asked if I was free in the evening. Could you have dinner with me? This dinner, said Jing, is that I attended your parting banquet. Then I thought so. Oh, this is our breakup party. It's just that our breakup party is not grand and our confession is not beautiful. All I know is that on the subway, when you were about to get off the bus, we looked at each other for a few minutes. I didn't express anything in my eyes, and I didn't see any emotion in your eyes. We just looked at each other with a smile. It's a parting gift, right?

When you got home, you called me and said that you had arrived, and it was raining, and asked me if I had brought an umbrella. Actually, I have an umbrella. I said I don't have an umbrella. It's okay. I don't know why the words we talked were so cold, and I started my insincere and dishonest attitude, or maybe I already had a result for us, but I didn't say it bravely. In fact, we have not accepted each other, this is the conclusion drawn later.

When I got home, I also called you to tell you that I was here, which is a kind of respect and politeness. At that time, it was already raining. I was actually still by the side of the road. I wasn't home yet, but I was downstairs. The patter of rain, at this time I did not know that this is as our parting gift. When I got home, I wanted to talk to you on the phone, but what I wanted to say came to an abrupt end because of the carelessness on the other side of the phone. It's the same every time we are together, every time we have a lot of words to think about, but I don't know how to say it. Although you have been listening to me all the time, "mm-hmm", but for me, this kind of chat is pleasant "? Although some feelings, silent feelings, silence is better than sound, but a lot of words do not say, mutual understanding is not the same. We all use our own subjective consciousness to understand each other, but this is not what the other person is trying to say. We just set up a line of defense for each other and didn't want each other to walk in. I sent you Wechat, originally wanted to have a good chat, in fact, there is no good topic to cut into. I made some remarks that I didn't even want to do. Because when we were having dinner, you told me that you were going to Yan'an tomorrow. Later, when you said at the subway station, you could also go to Cambodia, and I said: Oh! I do not have any too many words, because I do not understand what conclusion you want to get, I do not want to guess, I am also tired. For example, if you want a glass of water, you tell me to pass it to me and ok it. I don't want to think about your mind. You are too deep. Every word you say contains a lot of meaning. Should I jump in or stand by and watch from afar? So I added: where are you going or where are you going? have a safe journey!

At 22:33, you replied: break up. When I saw these words, I smiled at that time, which made me feel inexplicably relieved. Thank you for ending just right, which is also a gift to me. Because we didn't feel right for each other, but I didn't figure out how to end it. This is the only flaw left in my stubbornness and pride. I don't know how to open my mouth. And your "break up". Let me be free and easy together.

However, I still want to hear the reason. I called and you didn't answer. I thought you were embarrassed or thought I'd be sad. After a few minutes you came back to me, I said very frankly: I am not entangled in feelings, but I want a reason, you tell me, what is wrong with me? Whether it is you or someone else, someone will come to intervene in my life, my feelings. So I want to see what's wrong with me in what I think is a mature relationship. You said: in fact, it is not too complicated, some people like sweet talk, some people like to be practical, I happen to be involved in both. As I say to you every time, a warm picture, you want to break it, you have your thoughts on you is right, but emotion is a matter of two people. Every time you break it, although I know what's in your heart, I will be disappointed every time, and I will feel tired after a long time. You said, the gap between us, I did not cross, so I think it is better to separate.

We ended like this, on the night of May 20, it seemed to have rained all night, and I slept soundly, because my heart was not so tired.

When I replied to the message, I said, I appreciate your intelligence and wisdom, but also appreciate my own calmness and indifference. In fact, there is no break-up, we all have a tacit understanding of the nature of acting, but with such a tacit understanding, you are my passer-by A, I am your passer-by B, we met for a long time. Now we each have to embark on our own way home, all parting, will not see each other again, the last meeting. Between people, the number of meetings is doomed, so I read a sentence in "the next meeting", the parting will be a little deeper, otherwise it may never be seen again. So I said, our parting is not good, because we may not see each other again. The only thing I left was a picture of you. At that time, you put it on my desk. I said I wanted to put it in a picture frame, and we were still arguing. You said it looked like a dead man in the picture frame. You want me to put it in my wallet, and now I'll keep it, because I believe the world is so small that one day we will meet, and then I'll give it back to you. You're putting it in the hands of the girl who finally walked with you.

You said before that you were afraid of being alone, but for some reason, you didn't say anything about it. But I understand, I can understand, at that time I said I would like to accompany you so that you are not alone, and I am lonely, I like to enjoy lonely moments. You said that I am a very distressed girl, you are willing to give me care. At that time, I was very moved, so you are such a smart and wise person, I think so. Yes, we are all very smart and wise, we can understand a lot of words without saying more, using one word is "second to understand".

So that we all know that we can't get into each other's heart, so we don't pay. Thank you really for giving me this kind of free and easy.

Remember what I told you? As long as people are infected with feelings, they are bound to be hurt. I write our story is not how sad I am, or leave as a memory, but I want to tell myself, from this matter my gain and growth. The story stays in the paper industry. What is fixed is what is dead. There is no emotion. It just makes me remember what happened at a certain time and how I thought at that time.

I was actually very brave, I used a beautiful metaphor to describe our encounter: I gently passed by your clothes, unintentionally you saw me, so we looked at each other, revealing that kind of insipid, is beyond emotion, so I stopped and waited for you to open the door. I want to see what you are like in the house. However, there was a door between us, and you were still in the house, and you didn't open the door to let me in, and I didn't mean to go in, so I walked through the door.

On May 4th, I accompanied you to Baoji to attend your college roommate's wedding, where we chatted and asked: how many exes will you have when we get married? You said you wouldn't be able to sit at either table. Then I saw your look, a smile that I don't know how to describe, and I smiled at each other a little. I said: will I be the bride at your former table or standing on the stage? You look at me with a faint smile and say: this depends on you. Is it true that we are really so careless, such a cold heart, but also created my free and easy. We are all emotional people, especially very sensitive in our feelings. At the same time, we also hope that what we say in love should be concerned about the feelings of others, because some thorns that we can't see will hurt each other.

At that time, I joked with your friends that if I was not the bride when you got married, I would go to smash the place and ask them to help me. For now, they are still your friends, and I only meet them once. If you see them again, please give me a blessing: I am glad to have a chance with them, and wish them all happiness! Finally, I left you a message: I am not your ex. If we happen to meet in the future, when we greet each other, you say to your friends: I have seen this girl before.

I have been calm and calm in the whole process of the end. The next morning, I called my dad. I said my date had broken up with me, and I began to get a little stuffy and choked. My father asked: why? I said: because I am too proud, we are not suitable.

I want to be a very good girl, I want a proud aura and stubborn personality. In fact, I am very frank, straightforward, I do very well in people and things, I think I am also very good. I became a girl with a strong heart and chose the hardest road. I said that I do not need comfort and care, because in this world, only I will never give up on myself, only I am the most credible. I still let the tears released once, did not cry bitterly, just flow out of the grievance in my heart. Aggrieved, why don't I treat myself well and let myself walk some hard and tiring roads? People always have to grow up, and these roads will not be understood until they have gone through.

This is an experience for all of us, but I learned to grow up. To him, he is just a passer-by in life. There is not much talk between us, and there is nothing more to say. Let's wish him happiness. A lot of things are about changing yourself, not because of how others are, not because of the way I speak too carelessly that you can't accept it, but because you can't get out of your own line of defense, push that door, and can't see the real me. Everyone has to feel it with heart before you can understand it. It was you who didn't put your heart into it, and I just had a growing sense of self-protection and let each other go away discouraged. This is also good, we are not the same people, I hope we are well with each other!

Our story is that there is no sign of the beginning, but also such a quiet sound, the world is still so calm, and does not disturb anyone. In the relationship, my state may be really too indifferent, maybe I did not meet the right person. I have learned how to love, I will understand and respect each other, I already have enough ability to love, but I still need to wait for the right person.

I will also be better and better, because the excellent I can meet the excellent other party. Many times I am too paranoid, stubborn, I do not want to change, unless one day, I am really willing to change, will change. But I also hope that everyone will give me advice and suggestions to make me better and better, and meet the person who is waiting for me. Girl, we also have to be strong, prop up a blue sky for ourselves, and draw a smile for ourselves. Life is so wonderful.

Author: @ Mo Xiaoyu