Unhappy life perception

This is the third time I have picked up my pen to write this article. Although there are cases of hesitation in writing articles, the problems encountered this time are special. The main worry is that if you write it out, if you don't grasp it well, you will have the suspicion of showing off yourself. After reading it, people will be bored. If you don't write, you feel that this kind of experience and experience of life will have regrets that you can't express. Finally decided to go with the flow.

In 2016 and 2017, I successively won three essays in the National Poetry Prose Competition:

1. In October 2016, the essay "Suzhou Travels" won the gold medal of the 2nd China Love National Poetry Prose League.

2. In June 2017, the documentary essay "Cherish the Happy Time of the Present" won the first prize in the 4th Chinese and Foreign Poetry Prose Invitational Competition.

3. In October 2017, the essay "Unforgettable Lantern Night" won the gold medal of the 3rd China Love National Poetry Prose League again.

Through these three award-winning experiences, I have personally experienced the true feelings of the world and enriched my life experience: calm and calm in front of honor, not surprised in judging right and wrong, and not slackening in front of learning. This experience is actually another kind of experience on my life path.

To tell you the truth, my life is not short of stories, but some plot developments unexpectedly. I was born into an intellectual family. My parents were teachers at that time. However, I was born at an untimely time. My childhood coincided with the Great Famine. When I was a teenager, the Cultural Revolution came. I was transferred to a lower level with my parents and finished primary and secondary school in a township. The times are turbulent and I haven't studied well for a few years. And often frightened. I saw with my own eyes that a female teacher from Beijing was tied to a tree by her students and cut off all her hair with scissors. His father was identified as a royalist and tied up by the Red Guards, tortured and burdened with numerous injuries. Graduated from high school, settled down in the countryside far away from his parents, did farm work, went to the reservoir, lived in temples and started cooking stoves. Strict upbringing, plus four younger siblings, living in poverty, I will fall thin and timid, ugly, solitary atrophy and other problems. This humble way of living to dust did not bring bad luck to my future life. On the contrary, with the downfall of the Gang of Four, the motherland gradually developed and progressed. My studies, work, marriage, family, career, etc. are at their peak. Because adversity tempered their own hard work, suffered grievances, withstand the pressure of tenacious will, but also know how to cherish the good time. It also makes me develop an honest and rigorous style of work since childhood. The guidance and guidance of friends and family are essential. College I learned is the art education major, after graduation to do a middle school art teacher.

36 years of aesthetic education career, in a not optimistic, once dismissed as a small three subjects struggling, stick to the position, several times give up the opportunity to change jobs, steadfast entrepreneurship finally in 2000 was the first to be rated as senior middle school teachers, then senior art teachers in the country is also rare. In 2008, I was successively awarded as the discipline leader of primary and secondary schools in Nanchang City and the first batch of discipline leaders of primary and secondary schools in Jiangxi Province. I calmly faced the honor, did not change my initial heart, and was still a low-key person, high-profile work and diligent performance. On the eve of retirement, Nanchang City No.28 Middle School Education Group was established. The school was retained and entrusted with important tasks. I was not moved and declined politely. I think young teachers should be given the heavy responsibility. They will do a better job than me.

After retirement, I moved to Shanghai. Facing the realistic conditions, I changed my course in time, explored another way, overcome all kinds of difficulties, persisted in writing and cultivated, and cut waves and waves in the sea of words. I didn't want to accidentally plant willow trees. In less than a year and a half, I published more than 60 articles on prose network, including the first three award-winning essays. I was pleasantly surprised by the unexpected results. Only Old Man Time could see the effort and hardship behind it.

When I first received the award paper and invitation letter, the excitement was beyond words. Immediately announce the good news in each WeChat group. He immediately discussed with his family about going to Beijing to receive awards and attend seminars. Congratulations from friends, colleagues and classmates. There are also well-meaning reminders and exhortations. What they meant was that they must be careful when they went to Beijing to receive awards. It was not worth paying so much money. Some people even said why the competition did not announce the winners, you know how many gold medals they issued, perhaps thousands. The goal is not to make money.

In the early days of reform and opening-up, there were indeed many departments that took advantage of policy needs such as title evaluation and promotion to see performance to organize various competitions, awards and fees to accumulate wealth, causing bad social impact. When I was in office, I also received many similar notices and letters. People abhor this kind of phenomenon, the party and the state take timely measures to rectify it, and the cultural environment has been greatly improved. Although not all of these well-intentioned concerns are believed, they are enough to make me return to rationality from my newly burned enthusiasm.

In the 1950s, I couldn't stand sand in my eyes. On the one hand, I pay close attention to relevant information and trends on the Internet, on the other hand, I compare my award-winning articles horizontally with similar articles, repeatedly examine the strengths and weaknesses of my articles, and refer to the reader's reading click rate, so as to confidently draw the conclusion of recognizing the judges. For this reason, I wrote an article entitled "Acceptance Speech", which elaborated on my creative process and intention in detail. Self-evaluation: through visiting and enjoying the gardens and water towns in the south of the Yangtze River, while praising the beautiful scenery, it praises the diligence and wisdom of the ancient working people. The design and construction of scenic spots reflect the national cultural characteristics of the unity of nature and man of the Chinese nation, and reveal the humanistic spirit of goodness and openness. The perception triggered by the appreciation of the scenery can be used to discuss the present, profound nature and thought-provoking. The click rate is quite high after the prose network is published. It seems that the readers also agree with my opinion.

Because did not sign up to attend the Beijing Great Hall of the People Hotel on-site award, naturally can not get the award certificate hope. However, last November the competition committee sent out a certificate of honour. I had mixed feelings when I got my certificate. When I saw the live report and video of the 2nd China Love National Poetry Prose Award, I found that there were not many people attending the award ceremony. The small award ceremony was warm and grand. The winning author wore red ribbons, held medals and certificates, and his face was filled with joy and pride. It can be seen that the statement of indiscriminate medal certificates is wrong.

Many relatives and friends, especially students, felt very sorry when they learned that I did not go to Beijing to participate in the on-site award. He said he should attend this rare award ceremony. I replied to them, home can not be separated, so students have ridiculed, housework is not a problem, you will inform a later, we will come to help. However, in August this year or in Beijing, I was absent from the 4th Chinese and Foreign Poetry and Essay Invitational Awards Ceremony again.

In the 3rd China Love National Poetry Prose League, I tried to cast an essay "unforgettable Lantern Night". The article truly records the touching scene of my Lantern Festival at my aunt's house in Shanghai during the Spring Festival in 2017. I thought I couldn't pay for the absence of the last live award, nor could I pay for the compilation of award-winning poetry prose collection. The organizing committee may not give me an award, or lower the award to deal with things. However, I was wrong again. They not only accepted it, but also made a preliminary evaluation and re-evaluation by a jury composed of experts and scholars. I won the gold medal again.

The reason why I won the gold medal this time, I think "unforgettable Lantern Night" conforms to the theme spirit of the competition, that is, eulogizing China, thanking parents, eulogizing life and praising life. Write small things about life. Through the reunion of the big family Lantern Festival and variety activities, the article reflects the comfortable and rich life of the people, the harmonious and happy family, the filial piety and love for the old and the prosperity of the family. During this period, in addition to family banquets, music programs, idioms, flying flower orders, live work sketches, etc., elegant and interesting, full of scholarly atmosphere. Thus sublimated the spiritual connotation of the article.

My writing adheres to the style characteristics of loyalty to life and realistic performance, which is after comprehensively analyzing my amateur author identity, limited life circle, weak literary foundation and introverted personality. The tone of writing set for yourself. Every article I write has my true feelings.

"Cherish the happy time of the present" painted more like a long scroll. Youth, schoolmates, reunion party over the age of 60, the author will meet atmosphere, details, mood, artistic conception vividly portrayed. Campus grass, ancient camphor trees, memories and retrospection, black hair and white hair, confidences and wine glasses, hugs and tears, songs and sadness, gratitude and calls are painted into a painting that blends history and reality through time and space. It's so colorful, it's eye-catching. This is a passage from Li Chunlin, one of the literary masters of Jiangxi Province, poet, literati calligrapher, editor, former editor-in-chief of the national best-selling literary journal Selected Miniature Novels and member of the Chinese Writers Association, in the preface to my collection of essays Happy Time.

It doesn't matter if you win or not. The reason why you are keen to participate in the competition is to prove your energy and regain your confidence. Make retirement life full and spiritual. I will take the award as my new starting point, but not give up, go forward!

Cultural and artistic competitions regularly held by relevant state departments and folk cultural organizations are intended to promote the prosperity and development of China's culture. In order to achieve simultaneous economic and cultural development and realize the Chinese dream as soon as possible. This is completely in line with the spirit of the 19th National Congress on promoting the great development of culture. Under market economy conditions, the state does not fund the relevant activities. The competition fee organization award ceremony meets the spiritual needs of some authors and promotes positive energy. As long as it is reasonable and legal, I think there is nothing wrong with it. The key is to be fair, open and impartial. It is hoped that in future related activities, attention will be paid to the reasonable concerns and doubts of authors and the public, and the competition rules will be further improved. Make good things better.