Crazy

Crazy

There is a jargon in the Beijing opera circle: "if you are not crazy, you will not survive!" As soon as I came into contact with this sentence, I never forgot it. Because, I have been "crazy": I have been "crazy" for a woman who does not love me, as if possessed! At that time, I naively thought that as long as I went after a woman, I would definitely get it.

So, I am like a toad, watching the swans flying in the sky, just want to fly up, and the swans take off, so I jump hard, thinking that if I jump high, I can catch up with the swans and grow wings!

That swan never stayed for me for a minute!

And I, two and a half years, jumped for her tens of thousands of times, hundreds of millions of times!

How free and light she flies, and how hard I fly!

Every time I "fly", I fall. The higher I fly, the worse I fall!

"fly", "fly", fall, fall.

Sometimes it falls on thorns, sometimes on a pile of shit, sometimes in dung.

…… It was my youth, it was my dream time.

Since then, I have never been "crazy" again. I have become honest, calm and realistic.

I wrote this unique experience into one of my novels.

In this novel, I have been really "crazy", has been eager to "survive"! ……

My novel is also "crazy", I really hope it can "survive"!

Hope me, "no madness will not survive"!

2020-5-12

Write at home in the morning