My heart is tired, where can I hide? Originally thought that I have a stronger heart than others, it does not enter the steel, non-invading poison. This heart is not tired, it does not know how to get hurt, but it only knows how to move forward bravely. Face the world with a smile, even if you are hurt by the world, you can show a sweet smile. People can't see how painful the broken heart is.
Maybe it was camouflaged for too long, and the heart began to get tired. it wanted to find a quiet place to have a good rest, not asking about the affairs of the world, hiding in the mountains and fields, next to the mountains and rivers, and accompanied by grass and worms, so that it could live quietly for the rest of its life. It can no longer withstand a little wind blowing grass, it no longer has the strength to rise up against it, and its dead heart will no longer beat for anyone. I have already paid what I owe you, so leave me alone and let me die in a cabin in the woods.
Since childhood, I like to stand taller than others, see farther than others, do not admit defeat, do not bow. The competitive spirit is very strong, no matter what it is, you have to do it, and you can work hard for a long time for something that has no result. Many people don't like me very much, and my father reprimanded me for my behavior many times, saying that I was not like a girl at all, not quiet and unlikable at all. Every time I want to do something, there is always a large group of people standing up against it. But so strong, I always have to overcome a lot of opposition and ridicule in order to continue to do what I like. Slowly developed a strong heart than many children are stronger, can withstand a variety of blows. Can be camouflaged without a leak. And face everyone with a perfect smile. Because I know that I have to do this in order to walk longer than others, and only in this way can I not be defeated by others. I have the courage to convince myself that I can.
Slowly grow up, sarcasm and ridicule more and more, being ridiculed like a common occurrence, but already experienced a lot of experience of their own has long been used to, but a little more, more lice will not feel itchy. I have very few friends at school, and I don't care. Those who like me always like me, but why should I force those who don't like me? Everyone has the right to choose to make friends, why bother so much. I do well in my studies. I want to study hard. I want to have my own world in this school. I want this school to remember my existence.
Every time I will work very hard to learn every course, when others rest, I am studying, when others study, I have to study hard. I'm going to stand at the top. This also proves that my efforts have not been in vain. In five years, I have received numerous awards, certificates and scholarships. Many teachers know me, many students have scolded me behind my back, only in the exam when they will treat me as a friend, because they want me to pass the answer to them. They made me feel sick at that time. Hypocritical as a slave. I still do my own thing. I don't care what they say about me. I just want to do what I want. Outsiders have nothing to do with me.
Maybe I am selfish, God also wants to punish me, let me meet the person I should not have met, let him punish me for so many years of arrogance and indifference. Let him take off my hypocritical mask one by one. Peeled me beyond recognition. Let me also recognize myself, see myself clearly, I am just a little girl, a little girl who needs to be loved and loved, and needs friends to accompany me. I do this because no one can walk into my heart and make me willing to treat with my heart. Once there is such a person, I believe I will be like a fire, enthusiastic to get carried away. I was cold because there was no fire near me. I don't recognize myself for a long time. It's a gift from God to meet him. He is a transfer student in our class. When he transferred to another school the year before graduation, many students said that he transferred here in order to get a college diploma. His family was very rich and connected.
That's why he turned around. He is the kind of cool boy, but also very arrogant, from his eyes, you can see that he is always looking at people with almost mocking eyes. There is no doubt that this kind of boy is arrogant and cold, but at the same time, if such a person can let him as a friend, he can also play very much, will be willing to regard you as a lifelong friend, will stand on your side unconditionally. Maybe we belong to the same kind of people, so the same kind always has the magic that we want to attract. He chose to share a table with me. I haven't had a neighbor for three years, and he became my new neighbor on the first day he came.
This may make a lot of people break their gold teeth, right? Many girls whisper about how he is sitting next to her! He didn't seem to care what other people said. He sat down next to me and gave me a harmless smile, which was like touching poison. I can only smile at him in a formulaic way. He told me that his name was Hao Fei because he wanted to fly. Hehe, listening to his humorous introduction, he just nodded as acquiescence. In fact, I didn't want to fly. Fly carefree in the blue sky and white clouds, be a free bird, soar in the blue sky. But when can I fly? Who can lend me a pair of wings? Bow your head wordlessly.
As my new deskmate and the first good friend I had at school, we two became good friends. We have a lot of common topics and similar hobbies. Sometimes we do the same thing. Slowly, our relationship became better and better. We ate together, and as soon as we went to study, he studied very well, unlike others who said that he was admitted by relationship. According to his current level of study, there was no problem if he wanted to be admitted to our school. In the mid-term exam in the first half of the semester, the two of us tied for the first place at the same time. That day we were happy like children and went to the restaurant to celebrate.
When the summer vacation came, he asked me what I had planned. In fact, I always stayed at home during the summer vacation, because my father said I was too ungirlly. You want me to be quiet at home. So I usually stay at home obediently during the summer vacation, or go fishing with my little brother at my grandmother's house. Boring summer vacation. When I asked him about his summer vacation, he said that his family was going to Sanya for a holiday, and the whole family would stay there for some time before the summer vacation. It was the same this time. He asked me if I wanted to go. At that time, I really wanted to say yes to him, but I knew that my father must have disagreed. It was not that she could not afford the money, but because she felt that this was not what a girl should do. Unexpectedly, he said that they took the train, not without me, just take the luggage and don't prepare anything. I was so happy that I wanted to dance the little apple to celebrate. The next day I told my father, sure enough, my father was against it. But I secretly threw my luggage out of the yard. Climbed the wall and slipped out. The joy of escape rushed out of the chest. I'm so happy that I can't describe it.
In Sanya, I saw the so-called sea for the first time, where water and sky are connected. The water is so blue, many foreigners sunbathe on the beach, and children catch crabs and shrimps in the water. Everyone's face has a sense of holiday happiness. Walking on the beach with him, we feel like a couple. Maybe we don't talk to each other, but we both know that we like each other unconsciously. It's all because each other is so strong that no one wants to speak first. Holding his broad hand, walking on the soft beach, looking up, he felt like he was under a blue tent. He talks very little at the moment. He always smiles. That smile doesn't tell what it is. It always feels like there's a trick in it that I can't guess. Since he won't say, I don't want to ask.
Every day we basically spend most of the day together except sleeping together, and every day he takes me to many places, the wetland park and the house where we shoot the scene of if you are the one. There are different ways to play every day. We went to Gulangyu by boat, where flowers were in full bloom, flowers were planted along the long slate road, and roses, creepers, and violets on the windowsill were crawling on the walls. This place is like a sea of flowers. He told me that he thought he liked me from the moment he entered the classroom and felt that there was an invisible thread pulling him. When slowly in contact, this kind of love becomes stronger and stronger. Listen to every word he says, my heart is trembling, when can I have such a happy time, I can also be so loved and loved? No one knows how important this hard-won love is to me. I can't imagine what he means to me. Isn't he the first one to walk into my heart? What about the one who makes me forget who I am? Every touch he gives me makes my soul tremble.
When we came back from Sanya, we were as sweet together as many couples, and we were still eating and reading together, as before, but the feeling was very different. We are both who we think we are in our hearts. I thought my heart was tired. But it came back to life when I met him. It began to beat violently again.
Author: left hand reflection, right hand years
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